Dear Apache,
Today marks the 1 year anniversary of the day I lost my best friend and it feels just like yesterday that I rid you of your suffering yet continue to live with mine daily.
I miss you more than words could say, and I love you today just as much as when I first saw you. You are my boy, not were, not was but is, not Kody nor any other dog will ever take your place in my heart or be my boy like you.
My heart misses you each and every day and my love continues until forever. As I sit here tonight and look at your memory book and surround myself with your pictures and tags , I am reminded of just why I miss you so much, because you gave me the world. Without you, there would be no me, you were there for me when things were at it’s hardest, always willing to lend a furry body to hold and cry on or a lick or two to make me smile. You knew whatever I needed when I needed it and there were times I wanted to give up but I would just look at you and know that I couldn’t leave you and then before I knew it you had to leave me.
That was and forever will be the hardest day of my life, the day I not only lost my best friend but someone who cared about me as much as I did him, and who protected me and loved me unconditionally no matter what my faults. For that, I thank you Apache.
That day will never leave my mind as much as I try to make it… I just couldn’t let you suffer anymore.. it was bad enough I waited so long but I just wasn’t ready to let my baby go, I wanted you to have your birthday before you passed and even though you were so sick, I could tell you enjoyed it.
It was time for me to stop being so selfish and show you how much I love you and end your pain so on that night at 7:20 pm a year ago.. July 15, 2003 I had you put to sleep. I hope heaven is treating you good. We will meet agian some day but until then I love you more than anything baby.. and miss you ten times more….
Loved Always and Forever
| 1 Year - Apache James |
| 15, July 2003 |
| Jackie McKenna |