Sadie,
You were the best dog I have ever known. The connection and bond we had could not have been any stronger or better. I did not believe in destiny until you came into my life when I needed you most. You blossommed in our home, following me everywhere like my little shadow. You came back to life in every way here, and in many ways, I see now that I did, too. You gave more than I gave to you. I see that now. I depended on you for so many things, I think more than you depended on me for. You filled in all of the gaps and made everything better, no matter how bad it was. You magically took all of the negative stuff out of life, you relieved all of the stress that I have in my life. You were always there, my unconditional love, Mommie’s Baby. I liked that nickname as much as you did… I am sorry that I cannot be with you now, but do not be afraid. May you know and feel that I will always be with you and you with me forever, my sweet baby… I cannot touch you, only in my mind.
I cannot smell your fur, only in my mind. I can still love you, and always will. And, I know you will always love me. I hope you are with Jake and that Mom-mom is taking care of you. When we went to see her as she was dying, you would not leave her side.
It was the first time in four months (since you came home with me) that you would allow me more than a few feet away from you. Somehow, you knew she was part of my true family, that you were safe, that I would always come back, that she needed you there more than you needed to be with me or I needed to be with you. I came back from the store that day, and you were happy to see me but you were content and secure. I always came back, unlike your other owner… It was one of the greatest experiences of my life to instill that faith in you and to see you become happy, loving, secure, fearless, beautiful, and almost human in facial expression and other ways. Your ability to love was so great and big, it was amazing, and remarkable. You learned to love more, unconditionally, and better than most humans. And, most humans do not go through all of the things that you did before I adopted you. I will always remember everything about you and will tell everyone your remarkable story forever. You were my hope, my faith restorer, my light, my hero, my love. And, you will always be.
This is still your house, I am still your mom, this is still your family, Sara is still your sister, that is still your yard, your bunny rabbits are still out there, and your chickens are, too.. Oh, those squirrels are still out there for you, too… Dad will still buy you beef jerky and he thinks of you when you are not with him at work, as I do. Daddy and I love you so very much… The kids do, too.. So does Sara… She is lost without you, but doing okay.
Lots of Love Always,
XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
| Sadie Summer Minky Newti |
| 25, Mar 2003 |
| Michelle Engle and family |