On May 1st 1984 Daddy and I were visiting a Friend at the West Virginia coal mines. When we pulled up to his trailer, there you were, outside his trailer curled up in a small ball sleeping. You were so little. You were about four weeks old. Someone though you out. You lifted your tiny little head and looked up at us. Daddy saw you and said oh oh. He knew that you would be coming home to Cleveland with us as soon as I would see you. And he was right.
We bought you home to meet your other five brothers and sisters. All of you got along good, but you made sure that they know who was boss.
You were such a good boy. You and I bonded right away. We loved each other so much. You were my special Baby and will always be. We were always together. Then at the age of seven you were diagnosed with severe asthma. So you had to be given pills everyday. Then came more medicine and a shot.
As years went by, you got kidney problems, severe arthritis and became a diabetic. So that meant two more shots a day and more medicine. Stinky you were so good on letting Mommy give you your shots and medicine. You never gave me any trouble. With all your problems and your age you never stopped trying. And I thank you for that. Even the last three years of your life when I had to force feed you baby food four times a day. You never complained. My life was wrapped around you and still is. I have no complains at all.
I wish I could still be holding you and helping you. You even were so good for your vet that you had to see once a week for fluids for your kidneys. And with all of your medical problems you would have everyday; you had other minor medical problems that I would get worried about and think I was going to lose you, but you would pop back up in a couple of days.
I guess that is why it is so hard for me to believe that you are gone. You were no quitter. Stinky, I know that you love me as much as I love you. And that you tried to stay alive for me. I thank you for that. We were and still are solemates. There will never be another cat like you. NEVER. I’ll always remember how you would come into mommy’s bedroom every morning at about 7:15 to wake me up.
And at night, after your last feeding to say good night. And also when I was in the kitchen sitting at the table, you would come and look up at me and meow for me to pick you up and hold you and rock you like a baby. I would stop everything I was doing to hold you and rock you for as long as you wanted. Stinky, I miss all that.
I wish I could still be doing that for you. I am so glad that I did. I would do it all over again, if I could. As months went by, you slowed down some, but you still came looking for mommy in what every room I was in to be close to me. And again, I thank you for that. You made me feel very special. Just like you are and always will be.
On Dec. 20th your breathing was more labored then usual. I took you to the vets and found out you had heart problems. They gave you a shot for your heart and sent you home with pills saying that I should see so improvement in a few days. That night you laid on the kitchen floor and never moved.You didn’t even lift your little head up. I laid with you all night. Every few minutes you would cry to make sure I was still there. I would pet your head and talk to you to let to know that I did not leave you. That I was still there. Stinky, I know that you were hurting there was nothing I could do for you anymore. I am so sorry I couldn’t help you.
The next morning I took you back to the vets, and layed you go with God in heaven. I promised you long time ago my baby, I would not let you suffer or hurt. And that I would be with you when that time came. You were always with me through bad and good times. You were the only one that understands me and loved me unconditional. I love you and miss you so much Stinky.
Since you passed, my days are unbearable. That’s why I said, my life stopped on Dec.21 2002 at 8:30 am. I cry everyday, all day long for you my precious baby. But I do know that God blessed me with you for almost 19 years. And I was fortunate to have you that long.
Mommy’s life will never be the same. I know that you are with God in heaven. He will take good care of you until I get there to be with you. I will miss you and love you forever. Until we see each other at the golden gates, good bye for now my precious baby.
I love you,
| Stinky |
| Nikki Dickinson |