Six years ago on August 11 I lost my best friend Pirate.
She was a wonderful cat a stray that wandered into my life
and I loved her so much.
If it wasn’t for her love and understanding I would have been lost
through my parents divorce. She was there for me when I
needed someone there the most.
When she passed it was a Sunday and my sister had taken her to
the emergency clinic to see what the best thing was to do for her.
I had gotten up and she was downstairs with my mom and she
couldn’t hold her head up on her own.
I held her for three hours crying,knowing what we were going to
do was what her eyes were telling me before she went with my sister.
I had my dog with me her sister and I told the dog to kiss her
sister good-bye and she did and went into the other room.
After the deed was done the song,”against all odds”
by Phil Collins came on the radio.
I connect that song with her because the words fit the situation
perfectly dealing with someone leaving and the other
person wanting them back and they can’t come back.
I have gotten through this but I have pictures of Pirate all
over the place. I even have one of her on the visor of my car.
I have a dilemma my stepfather and mother are moving and
Pirate is buried in the yard.
For the first time in almost twenty years I have to physically
leave her behind. My step dad offered to dig her up and put her
in my backyard but my mind is telling me it is not right and my heart
is telling me to go ahead with it.
I have had two dreams relating to her the first was my parents
were making the final move and my step dad was insistent on
digging her up then I woke up.
Then last nite I dreamt I had a psychic reading and she was
contacting me but I heard no sounds I could feel myself
helplessly crying.
I just want to know if she sees me when I cry thinking of her,
and if she hears me when I talk to her.
Even though I have other cats I still miss her alot
and have my moments.
After all this time she still has a huge part in
my heart and mind.
Gabrielle
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