In Memory of My Chessy
1991-March 14, 2009.
You passed away the day before my 49th birthday. 18 years together. I never experienced a love like ours and for that long. So much we shared together. It was your gift to me to set you free. It tore my heart apart as I watched you slip away into sleep for the last time. You stayed with me for as long as you could. You seemed to know to wait till my best friend was there so you were sure I would not be alone.
Callie and Jack miss you so much. We have a Memorial for you at the fireplace that you loved to sleep in front of during the cold winter months. I had so hoped you could stay until the warmth of summer, remember how I said I wanted you to feel the warmth of the sun again before you had to go, but I knew you couldn’t, you were so tired. Chessy, the love of my life, how can I ever thank you for being in my life and bringing me so much joy and happiness. You were the Queen of the castle and anyone who knew you did not question your place. It’s just that I am so sad without you here. It is so quiet.
You talked to me everyday and when you wanted attention or food, you didn’t hesitate to let me know. One of my favorite memories was your attachment to your binkie which was a fluffy ball which you would carry around if you couldn’t find me. You greeted me every night when you were young by carrying your binkie and meowing in that special way that all the neighbors could hear and smiled at as I came home from work. Then in the last year as you became more frail, you would cry for me in the middle of the night when you didn’t know I was in bed asleep. But I always heard you and raced to your side and picked you up like a baby and took you to bed and then you would sleep in peace. I stayed with you the last night of your life in front of the fireplace.
I knew it was time, you wouldn’t eat and boy did you love your food. You looked at me as though you were saying, please Mom, it is time, I am so tired. And there my decision was made. My love, my life…how I can’t wait to meet you again and hold you in my arms and to have you nuzzle my neck and look up at me with your soulful eyes telling me that you wanted my love right there and then. You silly girl…my Chessy loo loo. Remember the song, “Chestnuts Roasting on an Open Fire” and how I made the song especially for you, Chestnuts roasting on an open fire, Jack Frost nipping at your nose, Chessy Loo, Chessy Loo loo loo loo, Chessy loo loo, I love you. Just for you my love, just for you and how we miss you. Wait for me…
Chessy, you are forever in my heart…
I love you always…
I Love You Always My Sweet Chessy,
| Chessy |
| 14, Mar 2009 |
| Sara McIlroy |