I miss you so much already, little one. I remember when I first brought you home with your brother, and how you looked up at me with so much trust. I let you roam free in the kitchen, and you popped your head out first, eager to explore the new world.
My smart boy! You figured out how to let me know exactly which treat you wanted, and where it was okay to go to the bathroom. I am so proud of you!
I loved how you would beg for watermelon bits, and then go behind your cage and wait for a while to make me think you were eating them, and then beg for more, and then I would find them stashed in a little pile behind your cage. I loved watching you poke your lovely nose around the corner, and eagerly run back to me to tickle my feet!
I miss you so much. I miss your beautiful little feet, and your round white tummy. Your beautiful little rose petal ears, your white whiskers and pearly pink tail. I loved that when I came home, you would come to me and sniff my fingers and hair and welcome me back. I know that your spirit lives on, but I will miss your beautiful face, little one, and the feel of your fur under my hand, your weight on my arm.
One of my favorite memories of you was when I was cutting out a sewing pattern, and you picked up a large piece of the pattern paper and went running into the kitchen, with it trailing like a sail. I also loved when we would play the game where you would go into a paper bag and try to follow the noises I would make scratching at the outside of the bag. I loved your discriminating palate, and I loved slipping you treats in your favorite nesting spot.
One of my favorite memories of you is when you actually curled up on my hip at night and spent part of the night like that. I was so touched and happy to feel you resting on me that I was scared to move–scared I would disturb your beautiful sleep. I wish moments like that went on forever, but I will treasure it forever in my heart.
You are my beautiful, smart, wonderful boy, and I miss you so terribly much. I am glad that you are no longer suffering, but I am so sorry I wasn’t able to help you more. I am sorry I was so busy sometimes when you were sick, and so grateful that I was there to hold you when you passed into the next world. You deserve a million kisses and every beautiful wish I could wish for you. I just hope wherever you are, that you are happy and with your brother.
I will also selfishly hope that I can still feel your presence, and if it isn’t too much to ask, I would love to meet you again in this life, and have you as my own pet/roommate again. That is my special prayer. You taught me so much, and I would love the opportunity to love you and care for you and bond with you again. I have so much I’d like to show you and give to you. So many foods you haven’t tried yet! I will search for you, and hope that I can recognize your energy. Please help me do this! Come find me again, my sweet baby! I would love to share all of my love with you again, and have a little bit more time! We got so little this time!
I didn’t want to let you go.
Know that you are so loved, my sweet boy. You’re the best thing that has happened to me in a long time, and I will look forward to our happy reunion. Until then, I’ll try to connect with you in my heart. I sometimes catch your wonderful sweet puppy smell in the air, and I will know it is you making sure I’m okay.
To all you rattie angels: please be kind to my Rizzo. He is a very special, good boy and I miss him so very much.
In my heart, forever and ever,
| Rizzo |
| 31, Dec 2007 |
| Heidi |