Sam
I watched you enter this world 5 minutes late of being a 4th of July baby in Puerto Rico. I thought you were going to end up completely white with the exception of those chocolate ears. You have the most beautiful big blue eyes I’ve ever seen. You watched over me through 2 surgeries keeping the other babies away from me. Sitting by me the entire time. You have always been there for the good and the bad. You knew me better than I knew me.
I had to make a rough decision earlier this year with Maxwell. I made it and I cried for days more like weeks. I hated to come in the house with him gone but you were always there to greet and love me and tell me it was ok. We moved shortly after his loss. And I wasn’t there when you passed away the other day. I guess Maxwell was missing you and your split personality. One day smacking him and the next day loving on him. I’m sorry that I wasn’t there for you in your time of need. It sure wasn’t my intentions. But I know that you loved Julie as well and I know that she took care of you like I did.
I know you knew my voice when I talked to you on the phone. I just always expected you to be here for me and me for you. You are loved and missed terribly. Please keep Maxwell in order and don’t let him get in trouble and I know you will make him mind until I come home to both of you. I thought Maxwell would call for Andy first but he really must have missed you. Now please don’t both of you get lonely and make a calling for Andy. I can’t keep dealing with these losses. I’ve done nothing but cry sleep wake and cry and sleep. A vicious cycle.
Keep each other warm and
give each other lots of
kisses and hugs
From mom Andy and Demon.
We miss you so badly.
| Sam |
| 20, December 2001 |
| Candy & Family |