Tattianna by Merry

TATTIANNA

Tattianna my precious baby girl…..No one will ever know how much I loved you….You were so special and beautiful. Those big big eyes and wonderful smile the way you wiggled your little nose when you didn’t like something….Your short little legs and fat little tummy were so huggable. I wish I could hug you just one more time. Just to see the pure adoration in your eyes to touch your beautiful coat and to hear you talk in those special sounds that only you and understood.

Oh Tatti you were the best little girl and only wanted to make me happy. Honey you sure did a good job of that. Thank you Tatti for all the wonderful years you gave to me. I was very blessed to have you. You filled my life with such joy that I can’t even find the words to express the magnitude of my feelings.

Tattianna I hope the angels will give you a nice little bed with a soft and pretty blanket for you to sleep in. To brush your beautiful hair and maybe even put a pretty bow on you. I know you will tell them how your mommy always dressed you up and how you loved all your pretty things.

Tattianna thank you for helping with my business. I would never have had it without you…YOU were my inspiration. You were the best little model anyone could have and you looked so beautiful in all your little outfits.

You know people always remembered you even if they didn’t remember me. You sure put up with a lot honey all the traveling (Big Bye Byes) the strange hotel rooms the van so fullthere was barely enough room for you(even though you only weighed 5 pounds)people putting their bags or purses on you and all the other things you endured.
What a good little sport
you were.

You were so little but you were never afraid of even the biggest dogs. Oh how you loved puppies you thought every single puppy belonged to you. You were also a very good mommy to your own puppies. I never had to worry about them you took such good care of them.

People said I spoiled you too much (they even asked if you knew how to walk because you were always in my arms or in your stroller) maybe I did spoil you but you never became a spoiled little doggy. It was impossible for me to do enough for you to show how much I loved you.

You made me smile a million times every day. It was the best feeling in the world to wake up next to you every morning and get so many little kisses all over my face. If I was out of your sight for even five minutes you greeted me as if I’d been gone for a long time.
Thank you Tattianna.

When I was sick in the hospital and nursing home and you went far away to live with Lannie I couldn’t wait to get well enough to bring you back home (almost a whole year without you) even though you had the best time at Lannies’ house with all her yorkie puppies. You tricked Lannie you little stinker!!! You made her think you wouldn’t eat unless she gave you a treat first and she fell for it you naughty girl. Boy did you have her wrapped around your little tiny paws.

Thank you for lying in bed with me while I was so sick and for all the looks that always said you’ll be OK mommy I’ll lick it and make it all better and I’ll give you lots of kisses where it hurts. You good girl you never complained no matter what. You were so easy going and laid-back and you loved me no matter what. Through our times of sadness madness gladness sickness and health and death you always loved me.

When I came home from NINA’s doggy birthday party with Priscilla and saw how bad you felt you still looked at me with so much love. When I took you to the doctor and he couldn’t find anything specifically wrong with you I had so much hope. Even though you couldn’t really walk you scooted across the exam table to give me so many sweet little kisses. Those were your last kisses and I’ll cherish them forever. I took you home and you seemed to improve I was so happy. Then you started to get weaker and weaker and I begged GOD to save you.

Tattianna I know that you kept yourself alive until I could let you go. You never took your beautiful eyes off of me. I couldn’t understand why GOD let you linger foe those 10 days but I thank Him for those last special days hours and minutes I had with you. I knew I need to let you go and held you all night and told you over and over what a good little girl you were and how blessed I was to have you for all those years.

You left me that Thursday morning in November 2001 and I placed you in your pretty little white basket with your baby blanket and pillow and buried you in a special little spot in our yard. My brother Jack helped me because he knew how much you meant to me. Tattianna I will plant a pretty tree as a living reminder of how much you meant to me. Tattianna my precious baby girl no one will ever know how much I loved you.

Merry