Taz {1 Month} by Alyssa (Age 15) / Mommy

My little angel kitty,

It’s been one month (30 days to be exact) since that heartbreaking day; since you’ve left me. It was the first time in my 15 year life that this happened to me. Saying goodbye to the best cat I’ve ever known. You were such a sweetheart to me. You always cheered me up when I was sad, and had fun with me when I was happy. I remember the day we first got you, when I was four. You were so small and
meowing all the time.

I put two dishes of water in my room and asked my mom if you could live in my room. I soon quickly got attached to you and you got attached to me. I always cradled you in my arms and you would sleep there. I loved you for that Taz. You would always play games with me as you got older. When I turned 6, we got another cat, Pussyfoot. You accepted her so quick and you even fell in love with her. You guys would always sleep and purr together, grooming eachother.

When I turned 8 we got another cat, Nala. She was so scared of you and Pussyfoot that she hissed and growled at you, but you accepted it and just let her do it. You were soo soft hearted. We had so much fun throughout the years. One year at christmas time you swollowed a sweing pin playing with the string attached to it. I was crying and crying that night when you were at the vets.

I thought you were gonna die. But no, you didnt die. You managed to hold on as the vet took the pin out of your throat. Somehow I feel that you held on for my sake. I loved you sooo much and became sooo attached to you. Years went by and you became older and sicker. The vet said you might have a kidney infection leading to a blood infection. You started losing your teeth and not eating. It was heartbreaking for that to happen to you. On June 27th my mom told me it might be time for you to go. I balled my head off all night thinking I would never see you again. I was sooo depressed. I kept you in my room that night. You slept with me all night.

The next morning it was time to go. I cryed some more and felt sick from being nervous. I really really hated that feeling. We were driving to the clinic and you were meowing in the kennel. I was taking my fingers and holding your paw through the cage bars. We were at the clinc as I was looking at you one last time. The vet took you away and that was it. I wasnt gonna ever see you again for a long time. To this day I keep regreting not staying there with you to hold you as you left. I’m deeply deeply sorry Taz, if I knew I could I would’ve. I’m sooo sorry you had to be alone through the process.

I’m so sorry I couldnt afford your ashes or a proper burial. I’ll always love you Taz, from your little kittenhood, until forever. Rest In Peace angel and I cant wait to see you at Rainbow Bridge so we can meet again. Hopefully the therapy I take will make me feel better. I miss you greatly.

 

I'll always love you,