"Helen" September 18 1999
Llasa Mix
Helen was a sweet little soul.
I met at the shelter I volunteer at each week.
Though they are all sweet babies to me
she touched me like no other.
She was found alone not the healthiest
and completely blind.
We got to be such good friends going for walks
me calling her name as she followed my voice.
She knew oh how she knew I loved her.
After being at the shelter for several months,
I finally decided to take her home for a visit.
My 3 dogs took to her pretty well
as if they knew she had special needs.
That was the weekend I had to put her down
realizing those 2 nights
that her arthritis was worse than we thought.
She was in such extreme pain all night.
She was unable to sleep
moving around throughout the night
trying to get in a comfortable position.
As I tried to hold her and comfort her
she would sometimes let out a slight scream.
How long had this sweet baby been suffering like this.
I couldn't let this go on.
I had to make the decision to let her
go or take a chance that the meds
the vet gave me would work
and if they didn't that meant
that much more suffering.
It was the hardest decision I ever had to make.
Knowing she was not well was one thing
but seeing her suffer as she did was totally another.
I am just glad she died in my arms
and spent her last days with me.
I so much still miss her and wish I had brought
her home sooner,
but having a dog already with special needs
I just couldn't and felt I could love and care
for her as my shelter dog..
Although our time together was short
we shared very special times and as I said
she knew she was loved.
Martha
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