" Dexter Vogt "
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To thank you Dexter for your love in life and after...
It was one year ago today that I lost my best friend.
I miss him and love him as much today as ever.
Time has helped the "hysteria" of the loss.
I realize how lucky I was for the way God took him,
swiftly hopefully painlessly.
I didn't have to watch him suffer or lose his senses
or lose him to some tragic accident. For that I am so thankful.
But the pain of not being with him has not lessened
the guilt of thinking I should have known and done
something to stop the inevitable...
He was 11 years old and I always worried about the
day I would lose him then the day came and
it was the last thing I expected to happen.
I did not do well on my own at all and found myself calling
out for his and God's help after many sleepless nights.
They answered with a phone call from a friend who had
heard of a six year old Doberman who was going to be put
to sleep if a home was not found for him.
I was of the mind then that I never wanted to suffer like
this again so I would make it through the pain
and then never get another animal never give away
that much love never get hurt again...
Something inside me wouldn't let that happen
and I went to see him.
Marnic is beautiful and loving and didn't have such a great life...
he had an owner who chose a man over a dog she had for
six years... SIX years and she was just going to put him down.
I think God and Dexter knew it was a story I
would not walk away from...alone.
We had some rough spots getting adjusted and
a horrible scare with heartworm signs of the previous owners
LACK of care but he is doing well now and I realize what
a terrible mistake I would've made to put the walls up
and not bring another precious loving dog into my home...
We needed each other and I am sure that it is thanks to God;
and to my child my best friend my soulmate- Dexter,
that we found each other.
And I believe that someday we will all be together,
just beyond the rainbow bridge forever.
| Dexter Vogt |