" Sasha "
7 / 2 / 90 --- 8 / 22 / 96
Rottweiler
This is very hard for me even after over 2 years but I haven't been
able to get over the death of Sasha. She was the light in my life.
She was my very best friend and the one who listened the most. I have a
great family a husband and two wonderful sons but she was the one who
was always there for me no matter what. Why did she have to suffer like that?
We played together and she knew every word I spoke to her. When she got sick
I thought I would die first. I couldn't believe it and wouldn't believe it.
I just knew she would beat this. Unfortunately she didn't. It was a little more
than 3 months after her diagnosis that I had decided it was time to let her go.
I should've let her go sooner but I just couldn't do it. I was awful.
A dog so wonderful as Sasha didn't deserve this pain and suffering.
Even on her last day of life she suffered. The one thing that stands out in my
mind is the fact that she let out 3 screams before the needle was finally inserted
into her and let her go. She was either fighting to stay with me
or it just hurt like hell but to me I did it and I want her to know how sorry
I am that she had to go in pain also. I hope Sasha wherever you are you are happy
and that you forgive me for what I had to do to you. Whenever you
looked into my eyes when you were sick I knew you were asking me why me??
I had no answers for you because I thought the same thing.
You were too precious to have something like this strike you down.
I will love for forever and I want you to know that. As long as I live
your memory will never leave my mind or my heart. I have
your ashes where you always loved to lie down with your picture on top.
I talk to you always and will never forget you. I am looking forward to seeing
you again someday and I hope then we can have the same relationship we
had together here on earth. You have a new sister now too but just know she
will never take your place. No other pet could. But she is here for me to love too,
but the love for you will never ever die.
I love you always Sasha.
Always.
Love Mommy
| Sasha |