As I begin a tribute to my beautiful big boy I feel almost at a loss for words. There is so much to tell about you that I could write until time to meet you at the Rainbow Bridge. You were such a wonderful dog. From the day we brought you home at 10 weeks old you were the most fun and always entertaining puppy. We could tell you would be big by those big paws and boy did you get big! 110 lbs when grown! But everyone that saw you thought you were so beautiful and especially your family. Of course you were so smart too. But the thing I always loved about you the most was the fact that you loved your toys and played with them all your life just like a puppy! You had several “fire hydrant” toys and they just got so torn up that I had to throw them away and the day came that the pet store just didn’t have them anymore. Then I found the “coke can” toy and you loved that one too. You had a few of them and then again the store didn’t have them anymore. The last two toys were your “men” one a yellow man with big eyes and the other was a “referee man”. I will keep them next to your Urn and picture because you loved them. I can still hear you doing the high pitched “puppy bark” as you would do if I asked you to.
I remember you also would walk around the back yard “puppy barking” because you were just so happy and you wanted me to know it. Oh and I’ll never forget your “lookin for lizards” missions. You always managed to give a little wag to me when you were sick and didn’t want to get up and move at all.
When Mike and I carried you to the vet for the last time I didn’t really know it would be the last time. I thought I would see you the next day. But I now know that you were saying goodbye to me when I turned to look at you and you were looking at me with very expressively sad eyes. I didn’t know but yet I was afraid because in tears I turned and walked back to you to talk to you one last time and tell you I would be back and that I love you so much. I still have guilt about leaving you at the vet. I am trying to deal with that.
What helps is that I know you loved me as much as I loved you and you wouldn’t want me to continue to feel this guilt. I know you have forgiven me for not being there with you. But if I could do it over I would have been there as Jennifer and I had planned the next morning. When we got the news we still wanted to come see you and yes “you were still beautiful”. It is hard not having you here after eight years. But you gave me so much love and wonderful memories I wouldn’t change that for anything. I hope I gave you all the love you needed. Of course I know I did. You let me know that everyday.
You knew you were special because we all spoiled you rotten! You will be my first and only GOLDEN for quite some time. You see you just cannot be replaced and I won’t try to do that. I have so many wonderful memories of you that will always be with me.
Thank you for taking care of me. I bet you loved seeing “Brandy” again your little buddy. Stay sweet and please look for me at the “Bridge” and give me a “puppy bark” and we’ll find each other real quick! Jennifer Lisa Mike and of course “Mommy” love and miss you. Oh and I know Bubba misses you too. Til we meet again.
SAM
“Forever a Puppy”
So Special So Loved and Always in our Hearts
Kathy