Piwacket by Gina

Goodbye my little friend;

I miss you so. You were the little bright spot in my day and without you life will never be the same. When you left it felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest and the breath was taken away from me. I never wanted you to leave but I couldn’t stand to see you suffer anymore. I suffered right along with you. That last day when I came home and knew your suffering could not go on I called the vet and he said “I think I can save him.”
So I took you there.

I was going to call a vet that made house calls that would have come to the house but I couldn’t endure the thought that this was really it and it was time for you to go. Even though I knew I didn’t want you to go; but if you had to it would be better if I didn’t have to move you and you were at home. So I took you to the vet who claimed he could save you. I will never ever forget the look in your sweet little eyes while driving you to the vet. You were so scared and you were begging me to help you. I told you that “everything will be all right.”

I really thought you would be coming home with me – alive. I really thought the vet was going to save you. I am so sorry I didn’t know that the vet was going to hurt you and make your pain even worse. You must have been in excruciating pain – I am so so sorry – I didn’t know – I would never have taken you there had I known what would have happened. I knew the only thing I could do to help you was to end your suffering.

When I made the decision it was like lightening striking me. I tried to say goodbye it just happened so quick and it was so horrible sad and confusing that all I remember is when they went and made you go away. I am so sorry my little love; I loved you more than anything else on this earth. I didn’t want your little life to end that way; I wish I could turn back the clock but know it is impossible.

Please forgive me
I did the best I could
at the moment.
I miss you so and remember –
we will be together again.

Gina