When I was a little girl all I ever wanted was a puppy. The apartments we lived in never allowed it so I settled for stuffed animals on leashes and dreamed of one day having a friend like you my Baby girl.
When we finally moved to the country we went to the pound right away. There you were the only quiet puppy in a sea of barking dogs with your big brown eyes and little head tilted to the side. I held you in my arms so tight and I knew right then you were the perfect friend for me to have. We were both little girls destined to grow up together and share a bond that no one else ever seemed to understand.
You were there with me for all the milestones in my life Baby. You ran next to me when I rode my bike collected salamanders with me in the rain sat and watched me build our treehouse in the backyard and pulled my dolls on the sled in the snow. You let me dress you up and take pictures and even sat still while I put lipstick on your little face. You sat with me in my room when I was grounded slept beside me at night and shared more ice cream cones with me than any puppy should.
As we got older and priorities changed you still stood by me through it all. You watched me get dressed for school dances and first dates listened to me gush about boys I had crushes on and licked my tears away when I had my heart broken. You saw me off to school every day and sat beside me while I did my home work. You never asked for more than to have your belly rubbed and gave me so much love and friendship in return.
Time was going by so fast Baby. I woke up one day and found myself dealing with grownups and bills money and problems. We didn’t play as much as we used to and I’m sorry about that. I hope you still know that I loved you with all my heart.
Your little nose was getting grey and you walked around a little slower. You never went running through the woods anymore and sitting on your blanket was all you needed. You still ran to me when I came home and jumped up as much as you could to say hello. We were both all grown up but we had a special place in each others hearts. We’ve moved from place to place state to state…but never apart.
Then one day when you went outside to the yard you fell. I prayed to God it was an accident but you looked at me and I knew. You were so sick Baby girl. I scooped you up and took you to the vet. You were so weak but you stood up in that office like a big strong girl. You did it to show me that you were ok…maybe even telling me not to cry. They kept you that night and it was Cancer. I don’t know how you went for so long without ever showing that you were sick. You must have had it for
a long time but I never knew.
I had to come to you the very next morning because you had gotten sicker through the night. You were waiting for me. You couldn’t lift your head but I sat beside you and I will never forget that look you gave me baby girl. I held you as tight as I could and I hope that it gave you comfort. If love can be felt by holding on to the one thing you love the most then you must now know how much I loved you.
You fell asleep with your head on my arm and a thousand memories flashed through my mind at once. My Baby was gone and you took a piece of me with you. A part of my childhood a part of my family and a part of my heart. My heart is broken and I miss you so much.
Thank you for everything you have done for me Baby. Thank you for loving me and being my best friend. We spent 14 years together on this earth and one day we will spend eternity together. Until then Baby girl…run as far and as fast as you want eat anything you want until your heart is content and know that I love you with all my heart and soul.
Baby
6/22/88 to 9/02/02
Kelly
| Baby |
| 2, Aug 2002 |
| Kelly |