Gar {aka,Billy},
6 months ago today I lost the VERY best friend and LOVE that I had ever known. I wish there was a way to put into words how I feel. The truth is, I have never known true love until I met you. Now, it is difficult for me to say how I feel as this is all new to me.
I still hope that you know I do and always will love you. You are truly my child, my son!! I do thank you for the love you gave me as well as showing me
I could feel TRUE LOVE again. I tried everything I knew to save you, but I couldn’t. I still feel guilty about not being able to save you, I am sure I always will.
6 months has passed and I still feel as I did the day I had to make that painful decision to let you go. I have gone through the pain, anger (not towards you but, towards me and towards God) and deep, sincere sorrow over losing you. Some have told me that the pain would pass, for the first time, it isn’t passing, it is only getting more painful.
I hope you know that you are NOT at fault. You were then and always will be a VERY good boy. I am scared that you think I stopped loving you and/or that you did something wrong. You spent the last week of your life in the vet’s constant care, we had NEVER been separated until then. I came to see you every day.
I still remember the look in your eyes when I would walk through the door at the Vet’s office and you would see me. I am sorry, I didn’t get you OUT of there right then and get you the help you needed. I am sure you have forgiven me as that is what you always did the best. I wish I could forgive myself, but it will not happen until I see you and
hold you again.
The house hasn’t been the same and it Never will be, without you. I still look for you, call your name.. I love you my little man. I will be filling this website up with Tributes to you, until I to pass. I will NEVER forget you my special little guy. I hope it really is possible for us to see each other again, I can’t wait
to see you again!!
Stay with the other kitties and all of you know that I love you and I shall be there as soon as I can, though for me, it won’t be soon enough. I will find ALL of you for Kisses and Loves when the time comes!!!
ALL MY LOVE,
| Gar {Billy} |
| 29, June 2002 |
| Brian |