Dearest Zipper:
You were Nick’s kitty…with the natural “M” in your fur color on your head. I got you for him for christmas in 1995. A tiny kitten, who was rescued from death on the streets. Oh the joy you’ve brought to our home, hearts and lives.
I wanted to write to you here, Zipper. I am mom…the one you cuddled with on the couch, the one you gave ‘nose kisses’ to, at least 20 times a day. The one, who would come over to me, meow softly…and ever so gently place your paw on my arm or leg..looking at me, and waiting to talk to me. You spoke to me with a special kitty language…answering me every time I spoke to you…and kissing me every time you passed by. I miss feeling you near me…your soft fur…which was like silk, staying near for the touch. Always letting me pet your delicate face…I loved to pet you on the cheeks, and nose…so very gently…and whenever I looked into your eyes, I could see your
sweetness and love for us.
I miss your companionship and comfort, Zip…whenever I needed encouragement, you knew, and you’d stay close..offering your fur as a way to help me escape this crazy life and my problems…you were with me through many years, that would have otherwise been extremely lonely. Instead, I had your joy, love and kindness to guide me through darker times. How lucky I’ve been to have found such a friend as you, Zip…to be with me as long as you were. I had a shining light in you…a dear friend, a member of our family who meant the world to us.
I miss your humor too, Zip…you were so funny. You always seemed to know when to do something silly to make us laugh. Watching you and Einstein play Kitty Sumo….and when I least expected it, you turning back into that feisty kitten you used to be, and playing with my hair….or nibbling at my finger, after I laid out some kitty nip for you….
oh how I miss that…
No matter what, Dipper….I will mourn your loss, as I have continued to mourn the loss of other ‘dear’ family members. That will always be there…the pain will never go….the emptiness will never fill….there will never be anybody to fill the hole inside me, that was opened when you passed. You know that Einstein and Neo remain with us…but each has their own place…yours will remain an open wound, a darkness…a void….because you were your own kitty, Dip….and no one will ever be you. I can’t express in a million words, what you meant to us…how you brightened our lives, gave us more love than we could possibly have imagined…given so much kindness, tenderness, love and joy. How I miss hugging you…holding you…petting you…loving you.
I pray there ‘is’ a Rainbow Bridge….because I look forward to the day, when I see you again…and I can’t wait for you to run to me, jump in my arms, purr and cuddle…before we head off together. Oh how I miss you, my Dipper….we will love you always….know that you will be missed forever…
and that we cry…we sob and long for you….