Dearest Apache,
I’m thinking of you tonight as I do every night, but as I watch the snow fall outside my window for the first time since you have passed, it makes me so sad. I picture us playing hide and seek in the backyard, me hiding behind trees as you come running and find me, face full of snow. I was so excited to see you enjoy your first snow, with me at least.
I only wish it wasn’t your last also.
I can’t stop crying and I know I can’t be sad, because you never liked it when Mama cried, always eating my tissues and ripping them up as if to say “stop being sad mama”, but I just can’t believe you’re gone. I keep thinking maybe
God will give you back to me.
I’m only a kid and you were all I had, now I’m lost without you. I’m incomplete. I would do anything to have you back. Don’t be mad at me for putting you down. You were sick and they said there was nothing I could do, trust me if there was you know I would have. You did so much for me in 2 short years, that I thank you so much for.
I only wish I got more time with you. You’re always on my mind and forever in my heart. Dont ever leave me. Please let me always have your memory. Don’t let me forget how you felt, or smelled or wagged your tail or even gave me
that look you always did.
I couldn’t bare to loose that too… so watch over me and you know what to do. Let me know your still here with me,
those little things you do my boy.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
MY BOY ALWAYS AND FORVER!
Deeply Missed, Forever,
| Apache |
| 15, July 2003 |
| Jaclyn McKenna |