It’s so quiet in my house
In the morning and at night
Your food bowl sits empty
Your collar around the door
Your brother and sister miss you
I think I miss you more
It rained yesterday after you passed
I wonder if that was you crying for me
I know you’re okay now
But I wish so many things
That I could have given you cookies more often
We could have went for more rides
More walks
And spent more time sitting together on the couch
That you could have had more peace in your life
That your last days could have been spent without the foster dogs causing havoc
I think I could have given you more
But even if I would have
It would have never been enough
Especially to repay you for what you have given to me
You are my light
My child
You always will be
I hope you understand that what I did for you was out of love
To let you sleep before the pain came
I hope you know how much I love you
Because you couldn’t talk I don’t know this for certain
But I do know that I still see you run down the driveway to meet me
That I see you out in the yard with your toy
In the front room with your bone
On your bed sleeping so soundly
And riding in my car in your seat
Those visions will help me get through the agony I feel everyday
Missing you like no other
You are still the light of my life…as you always will be
It’s just now that your flame is a little darker
I love you baby Samantha.
With all my heart forever,
| Samantha |
| 25, Feb 2004 |
| Kari Kohlmeier |