Alexa,
You were my only baby for so many years. I remember the day I brought you home vividly. You kept me company through my “single” years, living in our 1-bedroom apartment in Ghent. When Daddy moved in with us, you stole his heart too! You traveled with us when the navy brought us to Florida & were such a good girl through all our moves. You were so tolerant when we brought Luna & Mango home to live with us, even though you were old & not amused by their kitten antics! You were such a good sport!
You loved to go out in the backyard on a sunny day (supervised by mommy, of course!) & roll around in the grass. You loved when I brushed you & you loved to wake me up every morning to get your little bit of milk.
Allie, I didn’t realize your infected tooth was as bad as it was. Dr. Harris didn’t even realize until they got in there & saw what they were really dealing with. I was SO scared to take you in for the surgery, Allie. I had a bad feeling that something would go wrong—I was SO worried about the anesthesia in a kitty your age, but all your bloodwork checked out & I trusted that Dr. Harris would take care of you. And if you needed veterinary care, I had to be a good mommy & get it for you despite my fears. I couldn’t let you suffer if your mouth was hurting.
You made it through the surgery, but you just couldn’t recover from the anesthesia. It was such a shock when I arrived at the hospital, Allie, because Dr. Shelton told me you’d done fine. I thought I was coming to get you & take you home to nurse you. I was even going to take off work the next day to stay with you…but you never woke up & I feel just horrible about it. I couldn’t go see you, Allie, even though I feel guilty now. I was too afraid to see you, but I should have & said my goodbye.
You were so hungry that morning because I couldn’t feed you or give you your morning milk. You were so stressed out because you hate the kitty carrier & riding in the car & I figured everything would be ok, so I didn’t really even say goodbye to you that morning. The tech just took you back & I heard you crying as I left to go to work that morning.
Allie, please know that we love & miss you so very much. It’s only been a month since you went to the Rainbow Bridge & I still cry for you. I wear my “kitty angel” pin everyday in memory of you. I’m glad I decided to have your ashes & daddy & I are trying to find a special place to display them. You were such a special part of our family, Al. The house is quiet & sad without you. Mango & Luna are special in their own way, but no one will ever replace you.
I love you Boo Boo…
Love,
| Alexa |
| 12, Feb 2004 |
| Jenn |