I just wanted to express my sadness over the loss of my very dear baby today. She got sick about a month and a half ago. Emergency surgery gave me a few more weeks with her but the diagnosis of cancer let me know our time together was limited. She was my best friend when others couldn’t be there or understand. She loved me and accepted me unconditionally no matter what and helped me through some very tough times in my life.
I don’t know exactly what to do now without her loving support. Each loss from my furry family has left a pain in my heart, and the loss of my goofy Robi girl is no less. In fact it’s a little worse because she provided a great example of just loving life and just being happy to exist in every moment of her life and showing me how to laugh even
when I was the most down.
This last week was so hard. Her will to be with me was so strong; she tried to keep going until she couldn’t hide it anymore. I realized though her will to live was great, her once strong and healthy body was failing. I couldn’t stand to see her suffer and not enjoy life anymore. So, even though it tore a hole in my heart and hurt unbearably (and probably will for always), I let her go. It’s funny how things happen.
I never expected her to come into my life and leave such a hole. She was just this little puppy a friend of a friend couldn’t keep. I guess it was meant to be that she would be mine ’cause all it took was one look from those deep brown eyes with those expressive eyebrows and I was hooked around her little paw. She drove me crazy sometimes but she really had my heart and I believe I really had hers.
I’ll never forget her, ever. In fact it’s because of her that I know I can’t live without that kind of loving relationship. I know the next dog that will eventually have to fill the void left by her will benefit because of my having known and loved her with all my heart. I miss you so much baby girl, my heart already aches with missing you.
I loved you more than words can say and I always will. We’ll be together again someday. Say hi for me to Pickles, Maya and Patches on the Rainbow Bridge. You and Maya are together again, have fun. I know you missed her. You will forever have a piece of my heart.
Always in my heart,
| Tobi |
| 18, June 2004 |
| Carrie Morford |