My dearest Laci,
How I miss you! I never new that October 19th, 2004, would be the day that you would leave me.
I can not stop crying. I am so glad that 5 years ago when no one wanted you, I took you for my own. You showered me with love. I learned so much from you. During those years as your walking got harder for you, you showed me what determination is all about. You were quite a trooper. Laci, when the vet came to the house every two weeks to check you, you were always wagging that big tail and so happy to see her. Everyone was your friend. You will always be my big girl.
I know that you lived for me and our bond of love we had for each other. I am so sorry that I could not get a vet to help you on Oct. 19th. I tried, God did I try. Did you know when I knew you were going to leave me, I cried out to God, “If you want her take her now but don”t let her suffer!” While I was on the phone trying to get someone to help us, I know you waited for me until you passed to Rainbow Bridge. I am so very sorry that you were bleeding from your mouth so badly, I will never get that out of my mind. I am so sorry. I didn”t have any magic this time Laci. Know this my dear Laci, that you took my heart with you when you left me. When I held your head close to me and buried my eyes in your fur, did you hear how much I love you and released you back to God? I told God today that you are a very, very special girl and for Him to make sure you find a special place to run and play.
My dear Laci, I have to believe now that you are running non-stop. I walk back to your grave and it feels like a knife in my heart. The candles I light, are for you. The butterfly on your grave is to remind me, that you are free now, no more pain or limping. Did you know that Ms. Kittie, your buddy, keeps going back to your grave and sits there? I know that you are an angel now. I know when I pass, you will be waiting, I know it. It sure feels strange without you here. I want to still feed you and go on with our daily routine and then I remember and start to cry. I am asking God to give me just a glimpes of you running and playing.
I love you Ms.Laci. You are quite a girl and when I said that I would take you for my own, I never imagined that I could love you this much. You really did something to my heart.
Till me meet and don”t forget, you look for me…
Love always and forever
| Ms. Laci |
| 19, Oct 2004 |
| Lori De Salvo |