Bubba by Tina G / MOMMY

IT SEEMS AS IF IT WAS JUST YESTERDAY WE WERE ENJOYING A RIDE IN THE CAR AS I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LOVED TO GO BYE BYES WITH YOUR MOMMY. YOU NEVER COMPLAINED NOT ONCE THE COUNTLESS SUDDEN STOPS I HAD TO MAKE WHICH WOULD MAKE YOU DIG YOUR NAILS INTO MY LEATHER SEATS AND POKE HOLES AND MAKE RIPS IN THEM AND DADDY WOULD SEE THEM AND SAY, “DO YOU SEE WHAT YOUR BOY IS DOING TO YOUR SEATS?” BUT BUBBA I NEVER COMPLAINED EITHER. I USED TO LOOK AT THEN AND LAUGH AND THEN CRY AFTER YOU LEFT ME. SINCE SELLING THE CAR I NOW ONLY HAVE THOSE MEMORIES. HOW ABOUT THE TIME YOU CHEWED UP OUR COUCH AND LOVE-SEAT. I KNOW NOW THAT YOU ONLY DID IT BECAUSE YOU MISSED ME SO BAD. NOT BECAUSE YOU WERE UNCONTROLLABLE BUT ONLY BECAUSE I WAS THE ONE WHO LEFT YOU.

I NEVER THOUGHT HOW THAT WAS GOING TO HAVE AN IMPACT ON YOU. FOR THAT I AM VERY SORRY AS I KNOW ALL TOO WELL SINCE YOU HAVE LEFT ME HOW IT HAS HAD AN IMPACT ON MY LIFE. WHEN YOU LEFT YOU TOOK MY HEART, I DIDN’T MIND AND STILL DON’T AS I WOULD HAVE GLADLY GIVEN IT TO YOU. SLOWLY, YOU ARE GIVING IT BACK TO ME BUT KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER ALLOW YOU TO FULLY GIVE IT ALL BACK TO ME. YOU WERE THE ONE WHO TAUGHT ME HOW TO LOVE YOU THE WAY I DO AND HOW I LOVE YOUR FURBABY BROTHERS DOZER, CHOPPER AND SISTER SAM.

I CAN’T HELP FEEL A LITTLE GUILTY IN SAYING THAT MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL ALWAYS BE STRONGER AND YOU’LL ALWAYS BE MY SPECIAL ONE. THE BOND WE HAD WAS LIKE NO OTHER AND NO-ONE CAN TAKE THAT AWAY. I AM SO SORRY I COULDN’T HAVE YOU LONGER OR TAKE YOUR CANCER AWAY. I KNOW IN MY HEART YOU KNOW WE TRIED TO DO OUR BEST. YOU WERE SO STRONG AND SO BRAVE AND NEVER SHOWED ANY PAIN.

NOW YOU HAVE NO MORE PAIN AND ARE FREE TO RUN AND PLAY, FOREVER. I KNOW YOU ARE HAPPY I AM NOT ALONE ANYMORE AT HOME BUT I NEED YOUR HELP TO STOP TRYING TO FIND YOU. I WILL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER JUST LIKE YOU AND I NEED TO BE SATISFIED. ALL OF YOUR THINGS ARE SAFE WITH ME AND NO ONE CAN EVER HAVE THEM. YOU WERE THE BEST FURBABY ANYONE COULD EVER HAVE AND I CAN THANK DADDY FOR BRINGING YOU HOME AFTER I SAID NO.

I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS AND
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME EVEN AFTER DEATH.

 

MISSING YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS,