Willy Bean by Anna / Mommy

Willy Bean,

Honestly, there are no words to describe how much I love you, will always love you. You are my soul mate, my angel, and my son. I have not been apart from you (literally) for almost eleven years, and now every moment of the day seems empty.

You were there for me through some awful times, and you always knew when to hop on my lap and let me bury my tears in your fur. I don’t know where to cry now.

I know that you had been fighting so hard to stay here with me, but yesterday, your body couldn’t fight anymore. I gave your permission to let go because I couldn’t watch you be in pain. As much as I suffer the agony of losing your physical presence now, please do not worry, rest peacefully, knowing that I chose to suffer and let you free.

And as much as I have wanted to say that my heart feels empty, although my world feels empty, my heart does not. That is because you are in it, filling my heart
with all your love.

I have never felt such an amazing connection as I do with you. We are truly connected until the end of time and will never leave each other.

I hope you know that, even though we are not biologically family, you ARE my child, my baby boy, my son, and that I would and will do anything for you.

Please be happy and comforted, go play with Kokomo and Bonnie and Jeremy along with all other family members there with you. And know that I feel so blessed to have had you in my life at all, and now to always have you in my heart.

I will never forget you and I will always love you with all of my heart. Grandma and Grandpa love you too. And all the other people whose lives you’ve touched send their love as well.

Goodbye, my little “human bean,” my “silly willy,” my “giebou bougie,” my “pookie,” and my angel.
I’ll see you someday soon!

 

Forever Love,
Willy Bean
14, June 2008
Anna