It was a Friday, the vet said it will take no longer than a few seconds. So I sat on the floor rubbing my Kota Boy’s head and all of a sudden I watched as a huge teardrop come from my boy’s eye and run down his face. The next thing I heard was the vet saying he was gone!! That moment sticks in my head forever. What did that teardrop mean? Was he happy to be out of pain and just saying goodbye? or was he so mad at me for doing this to him?
These thought went on all weekend. Sunday –I went to church and the pastor started to talk about finding pennies from lost loved ones. I kinda chuckled and under my breath I said “Dakota – I don’t want pennies but I sure would love to see the beautiful rainbow you are standing by waiting for me to greet you at.” I prayed some more about giving me some sign to tell me your okay with our decision.
That evening one of my girlfriends called to see how I was. We cried talking about Dakota and I mentioned to her about what happened in church and how much I wanted a sign. About an hour later, my girlfriend called me back screaming to go outside. I walked outside in the pouring rain and there it was – a beautiful rainbow – which looked like it started over my mother’s house ending in our neighborhood. I took a picture and video a moment and then I just sat in the rain on the driveway and cried and cried
until I watched it slowly fade away.
I truly believe that was a sign from him telling me he is okay. I have no idea when was the last time I seen a rainbow in my lifetime. When I asked my neighbors or friends if they saw the rainbow that night – no one did — it was truly just for me and my girlfriend who loved Dakota dearly.
Thank you Kota – as soon as I feel I did the wrong thing and miss you dearly- I remember that rainbow and it clears my mind to only happy thoughts of you!!
To see my tribute to Dakota (Kota Boy) and a pic of him go to – http://www.in-memory-of-pets.com/personaltribute.php?ID=73134