You were stunning when I first met you with your bright, shining green eyes and lustrous white coat with glorious brown and white face. Soft pink paws and a smile to die for. So soft. So warm. And you became my best friend.
You always greeted me when I came home, and always said goodbye before I left the house. You kept me warm at night. And you always took care of your sister making sure she had enough food and was warm. And did you enjoy your food! Every single last morsel of it. You enjoyed surveying the world outside and with a hint of a breeze through an open window could tell exactly what was going on from the whisps of scent in the air.
You touched everyone with your love and affection. And when you became ill along with the first cold northern winds of winter my heart saddened. And your friends’ hearts saddened.
You lost interest in your food and your meows became muted. Before this you were never ill with even a sniffle so a trip to the vet was a big event for you. They did not seem to know what was wrong – maybe this or that. So after hydrating you and suggesting ways to get to you eat, you came home. You did try to eat but could only manage a teaspoonful. Water was taken by licking your paws but even a running tap was not attractive anymore. Outings into the gardens outside to watch the birds seemed to stimulate you a bit but you had lost interest in life it seemed. Or perhaps they got the diagnosis wrong. Maybe it was your time to say goodbye to this Earth for a while before you return to a new life doing the good that you always did.
After a month of being ill and finally refusing to eat or drink anything, you ended up in ICU with IV drips and a string of drugs. But surrounded with the other sick cats and your advanced age this was perhaps not the best solution for you my dearest TsaiTsai. I feel very bad for taking you there because when you came out you were 100% worse. You could hardly walk and were so weak. I did not mean to upset you by taking you there but just wanted you to get better.
I am absolutely destroyed by you leaving me but I know I will see you again soon. And for now you appear everywhere I go even when my eyes are shut.
I am so sorry that you have left us but I know it is for a happier place. And I know I will not be apart for so long. Though you had a long and peaceful life I still wish that you could have lived forever.
Always remembering you,
| TsaiTsai |
| 11, Dec 2008 |
| Ian Nock |