I cry because I held you as I felt your limbs go weak.
I cried because I knew that you were finally at peace.
I cry because I wanted you to hear my voice once more.
I cried because I couldn’t whisper, “I’m here, you’ll fear no more.”
I cry because you gave me love for fifteen solid years.
I cried because I couldn’t stop the down pour of my tears.
I cry because I see the spot you curled up in last night.
I cried because you couldn’t sleep, you were giving up the fight.
I cry because I had to put away your food and toys.
I cried because you passed so quick, you didn’t make a noise.
I cry because I can’t play with you again.
I cried because you were my very dearest, truest friend.
I cry because I’ll miss our games and good times that were yet to come.
I cried because your stronger now, you can play and you can run.
I cry because I miss you. No one can take that place.
I cried because you had to go. You finished out the race.
I cry because it hurts and I cry because I’m sad.
I cry because I’m lonely and I cry because I’m mad.
BUT…
One day the crying will have stopped and I’ll look back on our past.
I’ll wonder where the years did go and how they flew so fast.
I’ll see why I have cried a year or two away,
and then I’ll smile remembering all of our golden days.
And then one day I will be old and in the darkest night,
I’ll dream of you curled on my chest and guiding me to light.
Till that day, you’ll run and play and check in from time to time.
But for now I sit and think of you and I’m sorry……I know I shouldn’t….
But I cry all of the time.
July 19, 2004
Rodi Cat
| Sharon Jones |