Merry Christmas Baby~
This is the first Christmas without you here, I feel so lost, I look for you all the time. I have no big tree, just the lil one daddy bought us last year. I still have it in the front window, but without you here, I just cant feel the magic.
At times when driving home at night from work, I look to the skies, and seeing a bright light in the sky, I’m hoping that it’s you. There’s not one day that goes by that I don’t think of you.
You probably think I’ve gone crazy having putting your pics in every room of the house. To me it’s just having you still here. Every where that I go I just still want to see you. It makes things so much easier, but, not being able to hold you, just still tears at my heart.
Well, I’ll go now…….just wanted to say Merry Christmas, and let me go on thinking that that star is you, and the wind that blows every now and then is you also, letting me know your still with me. I love you so much……..after 15 years together my boy, I just can’t seem to accept your gone.
Run free, my boy, and know that mommy still misses and loves you…….
kisses and hugs.
| CJ Carlson |