I lost my little girl yesterday morning July 21st at 16 years old. I am so heartbroken I can’t think straight and all I do is cry at everything. I loved her so much … she was my little buddy. I loved her even more when we found out she had chronic kidney disease last year. She was doing okay up until March 2014 when she got really sick and almost passed. However, we started medicines and I even did sub-q liquids every day to keep her alive and with me. She was doing better so I went on my vacation knowing that she was being taken care of … very hard decision to go but I knew she had grandma to take care of her and a vet tech to give her sub-q liquids every day. I never expected her to go so fast when I got back.
I did get to talk with her every day via Facetime. I don’t feel guilty about going because I know that I had done everything I possibly could to keep the disease at bay. However, unfortunately, when I got home, she was in pretty bad shape, not being able to walk straight. But it got substantially worse throughout the day and she was unable to even lift her head that night (July 20).
All I could do was hold her and tell her how much I loved her. I had no choice at that point but decide it was time for me to take her to the vet Monday morning. One block away from the vet, she died in my arms. She had cried out … and I know she was saying “NO”” because she did not want to leave me. My grief is so bad right now I don’t know what to do … I know that time heals all wounds, but it doesn’t help right now. I love you Boo-Boo Billie — you were loved so much your mom, dad and grandma. I will miss you forever. ”
My love always for you my little girl,
| Boo Boo Billie |
| Denise Valentin |