My story is short but one I will never forget.
My family adopted Maverick 6 years ago.
He was the best thing that could have ever happened
to me and my family. We had so much love for him that when
he died suddenly Monday the 18th of March of this year we
all feel a great loss.
Maverick was everything to us when I would come home from
work at night and stop at the stop sign Maverick would be up
and standing in the driveway waiting for me with
his tail wagging and his ears up.
Knowing that I would come home to the dog who was
my whole life.
His happiness was all I needed after a long day at
work and fighting the traffic.
But now some how I feel cheated by the fact that 2 years ago
he had a tumor on his toe the vet removed
the tumor but told us that he would have to come back in
and have more surgery as this type of cancer can spread to
all his vital organs and possibly go straight to his brain,
so what could I do except take him back hopping to get
him back cancer free and that is what happened
for 2 years he was cancer free.
But then about 2 weeks ago he started getting sick and
lost 30 pounds in 3 months so he had some blood work done
and his liver enzymes went through the roof.
So he had an Ultrasound and the specialist found a tumor in his
abdomen and couldn’t see any of his vital organs
such as the liver spleen kidney’s or anything else vital,
but I just kept thinking that God would take care of him
and give me more time with him but that wasn’t the case
on Monday March 18th I took him to an emergency care hospital
and they did a check on him and drew blood and said that he was
bleeding into his stomach and if she gave him a transfusion that
really wouldn’t make things any better for him .
So I had a decision to make and this is where the guilt
comes into play.
He really didn’t have to many options so I choose to have him put down
and now every hour of every day I wonder did I do the right thing?
I am hopping that by writing this story it will ease some of the pain
I am going through.
I MISS HIM SO MUCH and I don’t know what to do.
I miss the wag of his tail and the happiness he always brought
into my life but I do know that he is much happier and
in a much better place .
I know in time the hurt and pain will go away
at least I hope so.
Susan