You jumped into my yard, and into my life, For A Reason Tobey. All I knew about your past at that time was that you had been beaten, abused, and your spirit broken. I watched you after that from my window in the neighbor’s yard being totally neglected, not fed regularly, limping when thorns got in your paws, crying for attention, as you stared into my yard at my 2 dogs, Pete and Bart.
You wanted to play. I brought you bisquits, and that seemed to be the highlight of your day. The person who had you then wanted to use you to make puppies, for money. I remember the rainy day when you finally had enough neglect, you jumped out of that yard, and into mine. I tried to put you back in their yard, telling them I was worried for you, with no shelter, etc. You kept coming back into my yard, I fed you, made a warm bed in my garage, and you made friends with Bart my youngest (6 months at the time) German Shepherd.
Four days went by before I caught up to your supposed owner, who didn’t even know you were gone. After that, I proudly took over ownership of you. I had you spayed, vaccinated, and would have loved to keep you forever. But you and Pete, my 7 year old GSD, just could not get along, so then I posted you up for adoption. I had you about 6 months Tobey, you came out of your scared world, you trusted people again, and you and Bart were so close, you played the days away, but because of Pete, as time went on, I guess For A Reason, I knew it would never work out.
A lot of interested people came to see you, but I was very picky about who I would let adopt you. You had already been through so much, I wanted someone who would be patient with you, and my prayers were answered on June 23, 2003. It was a perfect match finally. The last time I saw you was when you drove away from my house, on your way to your new home. Your big donkey ears sticking out of the car, you staring at me with maybe a look of confusion.
But For A Reason Tobey, I knew these people loved you, so I let you go to start your new life. Your new Mommy and I spoke every day, and I felt so happy for you. Your death was something nobody expected, and I am still trying to accept that it happened For A Reason. I will never forget you Tobey. Your new Mommy says that your coming into my life, then hers, was For A Reason, and we formed a friendship,
all because of you Tobey.
I am so, so, sorry that your short life ended being scared again Tobey. But now you don’t have to be scared anymore, and I expect you to be waiting for all who loved you at the Rainbow Bridge. It’s taken me this long to try to find the words to envelope what I feel.
I love you Tobey, and I am sorry you had to go so soon. I hope that I’ll learn to Let You Go again, and believe that you are happy again, because my heart is still aching. Your short life was most definitely For A Reason! I will see you soon, until then, let me know you’re okay, help my heart until we meet again.
We Love You,
| Patsy Cuddy-Amber & Josh |