I am missing you so – more than I can express with words! You hold such a special place in my heart. When you were reaching your senior years, on many occasions I thought of how much you meant to me knowing that losing you would be very difficult. You had been such a healthy little girl, aside from you minor right knee popping at times. When the doctor diagnosed you with IMHA February 15, 2012, I was shocked since you had not shown any outward signs until it had progressed to where it was too difficult to control. Your doctor, Dr. Rossi and staff at the specialty hospital tried every treatment they could to turn your disease around. They told me dogs often hide symptoms very well and that was the truth. They also told me you were so sweet while you were hospitalized. I knew that!!
Sunny and Niki miss you very much and can’t understand why you suddenly disappeared and never returned home. I can’t explain it to them; neither can I explain to them why I am constantly weeping but I believe they know. I’m sure in time I will be able to focus on all the joy you gave me during your 11 years and 10 months of life but I am missing you so much it’s not easy right now. I kept saying over and over to myself “I wish you could have spent a few more years with me”. I hope you are with Tasha and Kisha playing in a park with lots of green grass and a stuffed toy in your mouth. You barely knew Kisha since you were a puppy since I adopted you one week before I had to put her down. You had lots of time with Tasha and loved her so much!
While during the “great recession” being in and out of jobs, you gave me so much peace and comfort as you were always by my side and so loving with so many kisses to give…even waking me in the very early morning hours licking my nose. I couldn’t give you enough kisses! (I always told you that .). And, you were always
licking your stuffed animals.
Snannie bug, thank you for all your cute little antics. It was your unconditional love, and personality that made you so special!
You loved your little stuffed animals and dragged them around like a security blanket. Even outside and each morning I would tell you to go get your “puppy” or “toy”, otherwise you would forget. You would look around and once spotted, dart after the toy and swoop it up with such excitement and bring it inside. Sometimes, our neighbor, Ingrid would place a left behind toy of yours on the top of my gate.
Thank you for letting me know how much you appreciated me giving you kisses on the side of your little furry white face as you always made a hiccup kind of sound as though it touched your heart each time.
You slept in my bed every night even as a puppy and always had a place next to my head (always making sure your body was touching me).
You were so comforting when I took Tasha into the Emergency Hospital at 3am Christmas morning 2009 when I brought you along for “support”. While the veterinarian was explaining Tasha’s condition to me, tears were flowing down my face and you looked up at me with sympathy. You really caught the doctor’s attention. Your sweet nature and sensitivity was obvious to all!
You made a very unique and funny sound when you knew I was annoyed at something. You tilted your head up and your mouth was shaped in a perfect circle letting out a sound “ahgooooooooo”. I think you were telling me “It’s OK!” or “don’t worry”. It was impossible for me to be mad at you. You could always read me as I could read you.
You were so persistent each night before going to bed, looking up at the pantry where your treats were kept so I would cave and give you one. You always loved your treats!
You always following me downstairs in the middle of the night when I needed an aspirin or something and were always by my side! You would also suddenly plop down on your side for me to scratch your belly – middle of the night, day, didn’t matter.
Every morning when I went downstairs to get breakfast, in your jealously you barked at Sunny in the show pen in the kitchen. You always reached your paw inside the pen and scratched the top of his head and then tugged on his blanket. You loved your attention!!! You would bark until I took Sunny out of the pen so we could all go outside.
When you stayed in the pen each day with Sunny while I was at work, you were so excited to see me when I came home for lunch and at the end of each day.
Each time I would go to pick you up, you got on your hind legs welcoming my open arms.
You loved to eat and would jump up on the kitchen chair, tap your right paw on the table wanting me to give you a treat. Of course I would only do so when you got off the chair as I would tell you “off”. You were eager to please!
You managed to jump on the toilet seat when I was in the shower and stick your head in while I wasn’t even aware. Half the time I realized afterward when your face was soaked. You loved to drink out of the hose too when I watered my garden.
Each morning, you would get up on the toilet seat and curl up while I was getting ready for work just to have some more time with me.
When you were very relaxed, your tongue would slightly stick out of your closed mouth. Very cute!
Some of your antics were so puppy like i.e. chasing after the vacuum cleaner and the floor mop when I would clean on the weekends right up to the weekend prior to the onset of that horrible disease. These are only a few of so many countless memories I have of you.
Snannie bug, I am thankful you spent Christmas 2011 with me in good health and had fun taking walks with me in neighborhoods to view the Christmas lights late at night. You loved to open your wrapped present under the tree every Christmas Eve. You always remembered! Also I am so thankful you were around to take advantage of the mid day walks we took on my lunch hour, going to the park and around the small neighborhood since being at my recent job starting in October 2011.
I believe your spirit is here with me and will find comfort by reminding myself of that every day! I so miss not seeing you and giving you many hugs each day. As I always said to you almost daily “You’re the best baby girl in the whole wide world!”
Nobody knows what Snannie meant to me except for Snannie!
With all the love,
| Alison |