All I ever wanted was a best friend. I never thought I would find someone quite like you. A best friend is someone who is supposed to care about you and love you no matter what. They know you and you know them. You share everything. You don’t care what you do as long as you are together. We have been though storms, trials, in happy time and those days we thought could not get any better. I told you everything and you would look at me like you could understand. You’d like me hug you and cry into your fur. I took so much pride in our friendship- no matter how many people judge me because of it. I don’t know if I have ever meet anyone or thing like you! Our lives twined together and we became family. You were my Brother and nothing could tear us apart. Trust isn’t something that I just give out, and I would trust you with my life (which you proved me in many ways). It takes a special person and a special pet to have this connection with each other. And now in the end things ended up more differently than I ever thought. Now I’m reliving our life over and over in my head because that is what we shared- Life! We are one; one family under the sun.
All I wanted was a husky and then I met you. I knew from that moment we would share a life together and that nothing could take that away from us. We were made for each other. You were so tiny and so cute with your monster paws and little floppy ears. Those who I lost- We lost changes the way our relationship. I learned so much from you on… everything. We both grew up together. Would could do anything we wanted and I have no regrets other then we ran out of time (I was not there and for that I will not forget). There are so many stories that I could share but the one that breaks my heart is the last one We will ever share.
Our Dad, Mom, the vet, the nurse, then me and our friend Brittany piled into the room. And you choose me. As we all sat around you, you turned your head as far as you could to reach me. I held your head in my hands. Your big huge beautiful brown Shepard eyes never left mine. They looked into mine telling me, “It’s okay- I know! I love you too and I miss you already.” I told you that it was okay to close your eyes and I tried and hugged your body. It was the only time I have ever- out of 10 years- seen you curl into a ball (You wanted your sissy)! I helped you close eyes and that it was okay to go. All I really wanted was you back was you back and not for you to leave me- But I knew it was your time. You and I were one. I laid there over you and cried as one by one people left the room. And I have been crying every day since we knew, and even still now. We were a part of each other. It is hard to think of having someone loving and knowing me like you have. I have never felt so alone or afraid. But I made you a promise and I will never break it. I will not forget you! Nothing can destroy the Pride and Joy I found with you. You were a gift. I don’t know how to live without you. I don’t understand what I will do without my brother, best friend, and my SPIRIT. But because of everything you taught me and meant to me; I will be okay.
Tears of pain tears of joy, one thing nothing can destroy is our pride deep inside. We are one!
| Briana Baker |