Author: Chris

My Nicholas,

I will never forgive myself for not being there for you at the end of your life but I loved you very much and you are greatly missed. You will remain in my heart forever.

 

Junior was one of the most loving cats that I have ever known. He was such a sweet and gentle soul. I loved him with all my heart.

He had a hard life before I met him. He was severely neglected and abandoned by some people in the neighborhood. I didn’t want to get involved but he was so pitiful and looked at me with pleading eyes that said “Please help me.” After spending just a short time with him, I couldn’t help but fall in love with this beautiful cat.

He had fleas, he had no teeth, his ears and eyes were infected and he was partially blind. After a visit to the vet I was told some devastating news: He had feline immunodeficiency virus. He had to take alot of medicine and he always took it without complaint. He had good days and bad but no matter how he was feeling, he was always happy to see me.

Even with all his health problems, he was a happy little fellow. He was just so grateful to finally have someone to love him and take care of him, to have plenty of delicious food and goodies to eat and to have a soft, warm place to sleep. For two and a half years my world revolved around taking care of this sweet kitty.

I thought it would be the FIV that would end his life but something else happened. Something so horrific that I still can’t talk about it over 5 years later. It will haunt me for the rest of my life. I wasn’t even able to give him a proper burial with the respect and dignity he so deserved.

They say time heals all wounds but for me that isn’t true. Some wounds cut so deep they can never be healed. He suffered so much here on earth that I can only hope and pray that he is now in a much better place. If there is one cat that ever truly deserved to be in kitty paradise it is my precious angel Junior.

Junior, if love could have saved you,
you would have lived forever.

……I shall see beauty
but none to match your living grace.
I shall hear music
but none as sweet as the purring song
with which you loved me.
I shall fill my days
but I shall not, cannot forget.
Sleep soft, dear friend……

 

My sweet baby boy I don’t know how I will live without you. My heart is totally broken. Your death came as such a severe shock. I sat with you at 5:00 PM and you were so happy and alive and well. An hour later you were gone. The grief and loss I feel cannot be expressed in words. You were my constant companion for 10 years and 10 months and now I feel totally lost because you are not here with me. The lonliness is unbearable. The house is so terribly empty without you. Oh, how I miss not being able to see you, hearing you “talk” to me, watching you sleep, giving you kisses and hearing your purr that started the second I talked to you or touched you. I loved you so much and I will miss you for the rest of my life. Thank you baby boy for your comfort, your companionship and unconditional love.