My baby, my precious darling man, it’s been over 5 years now & I still cry. I realized a few days ago I’ve been sad ever since you left. I still wish I could go in the bedroom & see you there, rolling over to greet me. I look out in your yard & miss you so terribly. I made that yard for you, I remember planting your tree that has grown so big, the flowers that have all died, the day I brought home your lavender. The memory is beautiful because you’re there. Now I live with emptiness because you’re not. I would give anything to be able to bury my nose in your fur again, to smell your softness & simply have one more minute of loving you.