Bubba by Catherine

 

"Bubba"

May 13 2000

Cat

A long time ago

almost 12 years you clung to an office chair

playing gleefully by your lonesome.

The person who was going to take you home never came for you.

I am so grateful they didn't.

I took you home and made you mine;

you were just the cutest little thing.

Honey Buns didn't care for you at first but eventually

she loved you very much too.

When we went away on our honeymoon

you got to stay with your grandma.

She loved you so much she didn't want to give you back.

You were a great companion as a youngster.

When we drove in the car as you sat on my shoulder

although in your older years it made you sick.

It is the good times I want to remember.

You were always so kind to any other animal we brought home.

You touched the hearts of all who met you.

What can I say to you Bubba that you don't already know.

You are my baby my child my boy.

We moved so you could be outside have safe places to play.

But times have changed and the roads have become more traveled

and what was once safe has taken

your brother Rocky's life and now yours as well.

I know you missed Skeeter when we put him down

I saw you looking for him.

I'm sorry baby but he was so sick and he needed to rest.

I look for you every day I know you aren't coming home

but as I look around I see you everywhere.

You are (were) such a big part of our lives.

Everything we did evolved around you.

I can't begin to express how sad I am that

you are not here in my arms at my feet asking me for

milk or going after the chicken on my plate.

I still save the scraps for you but you aren't here to have them.

I look at my pillow I set aside for you to sleep on above my head

and all I feel is your loss.

The tree you love to sleep under is barren without you there.

I miss your squinty eyes as you come out of the woods

after your afternoon nap all half-asleep

as you mosey up the driveway.

When your daddy brought you home

that sunny Saturday May morning,

it broke his heart to tell me what happened to you.

I knew it was terrible as he stood before me with tears in his eyes.

I ran out to see you

hoping there was something I could do to save you

but you were already gone.

You were still warm as I caressed you the way you

loved hoping you knew I was there.

I thought you knew better to stay out of the roads being

that we lived in such a busy place before but it seems you

had forgotten about the monsters that travel on roads.

Everyone here misses you

Maggie keeps looking for you and crying about the yard

hoping you will hear her and come home.

I wish every day that this was just a bad dream but it isn't.

I am hopeful that in years to come

I will be with you again with all your brothers and sisters.

I pray and hope that you are

with Rocky Skeeter and Honey Bun and in the end

we will be all together for eternity.

I love you so much and I miss you.

 

Catherine

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Bubba
Catherine