I miss you so much. And I couldn’t be with you at the end! I did not have to make that dreadful decision, but I feel that I should have been with you. 8 days in the hospital, and 5 days previously. You went through so much. I visited you but did you feel like you were abandoned? The last time I saw you, you seemed better, more alert. It was the medication. You watched as I started to walk away, then whined, which was so unlike you. I went back and you licked my fingers through the gate. Then emergency surgery on Sunday night, and you were gone Monday morning, August 26, 2002. What could I have done better?! I did what the vets said. Was it right? You couldn’t have survived with the pain you were going through, but no matter what they did you just seemed to keep getting worse.
Eight years was not enough. I miss you following me as I moved through the house. You laid at my side when I worked on the computer, and when I shut down, you recognized the sound and got up to follow me to wherever I was going next. You always sat at my side. You loved to play tug of war with an old pair of pants. And loved to go for a walk! I couldn’t say the word in a normal sentance without your head coming up and that excited look in your eyes! You loved to go for a walk even up to the last.
I miss you, I am crying as I type this. You loved me unconditionally and I loved you more
than most people can imagine.
It’s been 5 weeks, will I ever stop crying? Will I ever stop feeling that you should be here in the house with me, or protecting the back yard? You were very special, and can never be replaced.
I cannot find the original posting, and you deserve a memorial. After 9 years, I am still crying as I type this. You were one of a kind, and can never be replaced.
Love Forever,
| Buford |
| 26, Aug 2002 |
| Carol & Pete |