I was just sitting back reading through my tributes to my beloveds and I couldn’t help but think about them, they say pain gets less and less over time, that is not true. Here it is gonna be 10 years this November that I lost Patricia and it hurts just as much today as it did the day it happened, I realize that it was my fault that you progressed in your illness Patricia. See I was gung ho in moving in with my girlfriend at the time and her Dad had a thing for my mom, she shot him down so he took it out on my cats by putting bug spray in their water dish.
Like I said in the beginning it has been almost 10 years since I lost Patricia. She was a white and apricot Siamese, the deepest beautiful blue eyes you have ever seen on a cat. She was my child, I loved that cat, she was right there when my grandfather died, I don’t know what I would have done if she was not around and in my life. I have always treasured our life together and I know she is running around in heaven with my grandpa and we will all be reunited soon.
Bart has only been gone 3 years this November, I still think about him all the time and miss him so much. Bart was a diabetic and went into a coma that he never came out of. His final awake moment was in my arms on the way to the vet, he licked my hand one time to say goodbye and never was responsive again. It hurt so much to let go.
The way I feel it is ok to still think about them, it is ok to still shed tears for their loss. I still do it makes me feel human, I cant hide the pain, as I write this the tears flow down my cheeks.
I love you Patricia and Bart.
With much love and a heavy heart,
| David Barnett |