by Kimm V.

I was not prepared for that dreadful afternoon that took

all of you away from me. I remember it like it was yesterday and

it haunts me everyday since.

I feel it is my fault for not being home that afternoon when the

fire started but how did any of us know. I blame myself and I feel

that I should have known.

The thought that haunts me is thinking how you suffered and

I wasn’t there to rescue you. It’s so painful that can’t catch

my breath at times.

Please forgive me…I need that.

My dearest Kleopatra kuddles Keisha Lou and Kalliope my

heartaches everytime I think of you.

Sometimes I feel that I am just foolish for having such strong feelings

for all of you. Many say that you can be replaced.

Never! nothing can replace what has made a huge impact on my life.

Not only were you friends but companions that got me through the

most difficult times in my life.

When I was alone with no family-all of you were there.

Holidays were celebrated with all of you like you were my children.

You were the best cat-children anyone could ever dream of having.

Someday I will be able to forgive myself but until then it will always

hurt to think of you.

I miss giving treats having all of you fight for who was going to sleep

closer to me and most of all your faithful unconditional love that lives

with me to this day.

I hope that you are watching over me and my son.

I need that extra support sometimes. It helps. It gets me through the day

at times when I feel kind of lonely.

At my new house I am having a rose garden dedicated to your memories…

it will be a place where I will go if I need to remember your undying

courage and beauty.

None of you will ever ever go away from my memory.

I just wish that it wouldn’t hurt so bad.

My love for animals have been taken to the extreme and I hope time

will show me and anyone else who is going through this how to cope.

Kleopatra- June 6th 1994 – October 28th 2000.

Kuddles – August 1st 1994 – October 28t 2000.

Keisha Lou – April 15th 1995 – October 28th 2000.

Kalliope – March 23rd 1996 – October 28th 2000.

In my heart in my memory you live on.

Never will I rest until the person who set that fire is brought to justice.

I hope anyone who reads this will say a few words in silence

for their beloved and mine.

” Look to the heavens to see the eyes of angels “

Kimm V.

 

Kimm V.