Today is my birthday I turned fifty two,
I’m not going to celebrate, not without you.
No cake, presents or party balloons,
Just myself here alone in my room.
As I lay here looking at the pictures of you
on the wall I realize you were so short but you
Always stood tall You were so perfect, Mommy’s little baby,
Even though you were six and turning into quite a little lady.
You were so precious, as precious as could be
I often wonder why was I so blessed for you to love me.
Yes, it’s my birthday but no happiness I can find,
I feel so depressed I think I am loosing my mind.
I don’t think I can ever celebrate ever again,
nothing feels good without my little friend.
I don’t know if my heart is ever going to mend.
I always knew the bond between us was very strong,
What I didn’t know was without you I could barely go on.
My tears fall like the pouring rain,
It has been said this will ease the pain.
I have heard you can die from a broken heart,
who ever said that was pretty smart.
I’ve fallen into such a deep depression, all I can do is cry,
God please don’t let Brandy see me like this shell say why mommy why?
It’s 5:30 in the morning and I haven’t fallen asleep,
I just cant stop thinking of my sweet baby and again I weep.
I just cant go on anymore without you in my life,
It feels as if somethings in my heart, just like a knife.
As I lay here cold and all alone
I pray over and over Brandy please come back home.
I don’t know how to go on and make life worth living anymore,
just getting out of bed I find is a major chore.
If God only known how desperate I’d be,
I know he’d send you back home back here to me.
My heart is filled with so much pain and sorrow,
I just can’t go through all of this again tomorrow.
Brandy you meant everything in life to me,
I never ever wanted to let go, to set you free.
All I ever prayed for is you would come home with me.
I only know now I must get to those pearly gates,
because I have no doubt there’s an angel who sits and waits.
I can’t wait for the moment when her eyes meet mine,
From that moment on everything will be just fine.
I’ll run to you, you will jump in my arms and lick my face;
we will be so happy, together forever in such a beautiful place.
I never again will remember the sad day the nurse brought
you to me in a card board box.
I took you in my arms and headed for the car,
We took you to be cremated we didn’t have to drive very far.
I kissed you and handed you over for the very last time,
I had to give you up because you were no longer mine.
I did then everything I was suppose to do,
my faith was telling me I’d someday be reunited with you.
This will be a time I have waited forever for,
we are together again, and never have to feel pain anymore.
I LOVE YOU BRANDY.
| Mary Arviso |