It’s the early morning hours and I can’t sleep.
I have been thinking of you Casey for the last two heart breaking days
since we buried you next to your little friend Nikki and your
adopted mom Bobbi. I feel so guilty that I had to make the decision
to put you to sleep.
You struggled so hard for the last year trying so hard to keep walking.
The drugs helped a lot over the last four years but they took their toll
and your old hips finally gave out.
You were so brave never crying out when I knew you were in pain.
Your vet said that it was only due to your great care that you lived to
almost 17 but that doesn’t mend my broken heart.
It was only 4 months ago that we had to put your little friend Nikki to
sleep also. Diabetes finally claimed her after five years.
Losing two of my family members in such a close span is almost
to much to bear. I have such guilt should I have waited a little longer
would it have made a difference?
I keep asking myself over and over should I have waited?
You seem to be telling me that day that it was time.
Did I understand you?
Your eyes looked so tired and it was heartbreaking to watch you
watch your other two friends Tara and Tawny run and play.
I pray that there is a Rainbow Bridge and you are there with your friends
running and playing again and I will see you there someday.
I love you Casey,
please forgive me.
Your Mom
| Shirley |