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“”Our Little Bear” by Kenneth and Deborah Smedley / MOMMY

To my little bear, I have thought this out so much, but I can not get the right words to tell you how much you have meant to me. You have always been loyal in times where I have not. After having 4 children I feel as if I had put you on the back burner and it was not what I intended. But these last couple of months when it was just me and you I have learned to put you on that front burner again, taking care of you and loving you just giving you a biscuit when you would WHOO WHOO WHOO at me, I miss that so much, and always took it for granted. I have never thought that you would have left us. You were such a great DOG… you were more than that to us you were OUR LITTLE BEAR… always looking out for the kids no matter how tired you were, always looking out for them no matter what.

I will always remember taking you to the vet and hearing those words of Cancer and not wanting to believe them it was then when I realized that you would not be there forever the way I wanted you to be. Just holding you head that day in The vet’s office I had a hole in my heart that I knew would grow bigger in time, shortly than I had hoped that whole got bigger when the day we had to say goodbye to you.

I sat in the back of the car with you to let you know that you were OK, with you not realizing what was going to happen, but I knew you knew I was with you and I know that it made you feel better since you could never stand a car ride. This breaks my heart to know you have left us and I am crying like a baby right now writing these words to you.

I know that everyone says in time it will get better but for know I just laugh at that cause you are not here. I take comfort in knowing that you are no longer in pain, but I can say that the selfish part of me wants you here.

I want to say that I will see you again in the Rainbows bridge, to much had happened for me to believe in that, but I hope that I am wrong and I will see you again, but for now I know that no one can take you out of my heart and my thoughts always.

 

I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER