July 29 1999 —- Lost in Sept.
Puppy 5 Weeks Old
I stand alone and wait for you
as I stare at the sky and wonder
Why God let you disappear
you were my only splendor
I should have never put you down
Or let you out of sight
I blame it all on myself
I cry with all my might
You were too young
to leave your mother
but I still snuck weekends
so we’d spend nights together
You cried in the silent night
and wanted me to hold you
Why did I take it for granite
I never thought it through
I gently put my hand down
and let you cuddle me
all you wanted was my love
And you were mine to keep
I visited you every day
as you lived with your mommy
and put you back while I went out
I regret it… I’m so sorry
That Sunday I regret so badly
I remember it so clear
“You weren’t allowed to the park”
Thats my dads voice that I hear
As badly as I wanted you to go
All I did was sneer
I put you back with your mommy
and said good-bye with no fear
At the park I thought of you
and thought about our times
I couldn’t wait to get back home
and gaze into your eyes
When I got home I was so anxious
to come see you and play
but when I went to your house
You weren’t there to my dismay
I called your name and waited
and frowned in so much fear
I looked around and saw nothing
beyond my blurry tears
My heart started pounding
I had lost you forever
Why would God do this to me
My heart sinks even lower
I had lost my little baby
and all the plans I had
to spend my life with you
all the times we would’ve had
I can’t give up on you now
I know you was waiting
for me to come and find you
If only I’d stop shaking
I knock on every door around
and post signs up on the street
I search every backyard I see
If I try hard enough we shall meet.
Time passes and your not found
My heart sinks deeper every day
and then one day it hits the ground
my heart had fallen all the way
I never knew that I would loose you
It never crossed my mind
and because of one stupid decision
your now out of my life
Sometimes I hear your cries at night
in the silent darkness
but I think God took you home
Because of parvo virus
Thats one reason why I think you left
so I wont suffer while you die
You couldn’t see me in such pain
So you had to say good-bye
A few sisters of yours died
the virus was all around
your mommy had no shots
(by the way your mommy was sent to the pound)
To add in another thing
we got two of your sisters
They got parvo virus
we watched as they got sicker
But God held his hand out
and they both survived
Sweet Pea and Lacey
have now been revived
As much as I love them
I still miss you dear
I wish I could have all of you
I’d be so happy here
There are never enough words for you
I could write all night
But in my heart I feel you tell me
that you are all right
With this poem I say good-bye
if your on this earth or heaven
I still look for you in backyards
Because you are my Jasmine
Dedicated to Jasmine my little puppy and
I’ll never forget you.
Jennifer
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