Where are you Big Boy? Sadness fills our hearts. All those night’s he was by our sides, he cared for us. He came around to check on us as we slept. Where are you Big Boy? That night he never came. We came to check on Him. We tried to comfort him. We did our best. He had a hard time to leave us. We didn’t want Him to go.
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Wherever we went, in life if Jordan couldn’t go, we simply did not go. But this time we could not go with Him. From the moment we had seen Him, we wanted Him to care for and love. We knew He would be ours. He became our best friend, and also to others; we shared a bond that was like no other. He will remain safe in our hearts forever, and nothing will ever take that away, so wherever we go I want you to know! Jordy’s coming to! You will never be alone.
He gave more than we could ever give, right to the very last minute. He went to sleep as He looked deep into our eyes. We prayed to God many nights before, not to let Him suffer; we loved Jordan. He was always such a good boy, and will always be in our hearts, never letting go. The day we got Him, we knew who was in charge. He was meant to be ours. When we first saw Him there, he was hiding under His dad. His Dad was big and strong, and very handsome; we might add. Your new master was heard saying!! Hey there big guy, how are you? As he walked up to you, in return He gave this big growl. From that day on we knew who would be in charge. We brought him home.
Oh my! Such a fuss was made; everybody wanting to hold Him, they all loved Him. A cute cuddly little guy, and a big ball of fuzz. As a baby one of His favorite places to be was in the closet throwing the shoes out one by one not caring who he woke up. This was an early morning thing, until He found the door stopper. Oh Yeah! There was the door stopper. How he would just love to get there early in the morning & play with it. By the hour if he could, it had a tune of its own, waking up the household. No Jordan didn’t care! He found it very entertaining.
He never done any damage like most puppies we heard did. I guess it was all the attention. Jodan loved to pose in front of the camera. We have so many pictures and memories of Him. How he loved boat rides, car rides, fishing and waiting for us drop the fish on the floor of the boat, so he could finally catch his own. Just the look on his face, a million words could not explain. His favorite saying? “Jordy’s coming, too”. He loved to here those words, come on let’s go.
He’d be first there, always ready. He was a Hit. When we had a yard sale everybody noticed Him. Nobody ever asked if he was for sale. I do admit he was the center of attention and he loved it. What a Ham.
Jordan grew up to be a strong Noble, beautiful and strong; fathered two beautiful litters one litter of 11 and the other of 6. He stood so proud. There wasn’t a day went by that someone didn’t say, that’s a beautiful dog.
We where so proud of Him and we still are.
He has a lot of friends, with failing health; we still tried to keep Him busy. We slowed down for him, to enable him to come, helping him along the way still taking Him to His favorite places always putting Him first.
On the weekend of Sept. 27 th we went to the trailer; he had a good time and loved it there. We all went for a boat ride. He couldn’t wait to get in and he tried so hard. We very carefully helped Him in and out of the boat as he couldn’t do it on your own, but yes! He wanted to go, enjoying the scenery as we drove along. Always looking very carefully to see if he could see any other dogs on the shore. When He seen him, we sure knew it! We had the Bon fire, that he always loved. He was always out there waiting, before it was even lit. We covered Him to keep Him warm.
That night, and as always, the BBQ he enjoyed a hunk of steak with Dad. We arrived home safe and sound. Jordan seemed to be kind of okay. He didn’t really care to eat or even have that walk that he enjoyed so much, especially those cookies. He didn’t even want one, unusual for a cookie monster. We all retired that night, with Him at our bed side.
Oct 1st. 2002 I hadn’t been feeling well so again. I slept in the spare room not wanting to awaken the Family. With my cough, Jordan came in as many as three times a night to check on me that week. I could always feel His breath, breathing on mine which awaked me, saying I’m okay as I petted Him on the head. He cared so much.
That night He never came. I awoke wondering where is Jordan, like I had never done before. I seemed to know there was something wrong. I went to Him as he picked up one foot and it was like a wave, now that
I think of it! Maybe a call for help?
He seemed to be okay as I tickled His nose and said good night Jordy Mommie loves you. I went back to bed, suddenly Dad came running, somethings wrong with Jordan; we both ran to him frantically not knowing what to do realizing; it was seizure. We held Him close lovingly. He hung on to Dad’s shirt in pain. 2 am we found an emergency Vet to help Him; we rushed Him over. Sadly there wasn’t much they could do. He was in pain so bad that he was grinding His teeth into the down concrete. The cancer had spread to the liver and it was a mass they said, there wasn’t nothing they could do.
Our hearts just dropped. We hurt so bad, knowing that we would not be taking Him home with us again. He couldn’t come. As we sat in the car we looked at each other and said, “we left Him behind! ” Jordan has left a mark in our hearts that will never fade. Whatever we gave to Jordan, he always gave back ten times more, never asking for anything. We talked and played in the yard so many times. I can actually see Him there in His favorite places where He liked to sit. That big old ball that he liked to run and play with Yah, it’s still there.
We miss hearing the trotting of His Big feet up and down the yard and in the hallways. We miss having Him by our side. We will always miss just reaching down at night by our Bedside, knowing He is there and getting that little hand kiss from Him that He did so well. He always made the rounds at night to be sure, we where all safe in bed. What a care giver He was. We put His Picture over our bed where He can still look down and watch over us as he always want to.
The hurt that we feel He would not want. We will be together again and yes He is are our Big Boy, and we know where He is. Thank You for letting us share our story in the very early days of the shock and immense grief we are feeling. We miss Him so much We love you Jordan.
Tony & Pat & Family
| Jordan Von Puder |
| 1, Oct 2002 |
| Tony, Pat & Family |