“I Only Wanted You”
– Author Unknown
They say memories are golden
well, maybe that is true
I never wanted memories
I only wanted you.
A million times I will miss you
a million times I will cry
if love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly
in death I love you still
in my heart you hold a place
no other could ever fill.
It broke my heart to lose you
but you did not go alone
for part of me went with you
the day God called you home.
Your precious memory is my keepsake
with which I’ll never part
God has you safe in his keeping
but I’ll have you forever in my heart.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane
I’d walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.
Our family chain is broken
and nothing seems the same
but as God calls us one by one
the chain will link again.
Dear Kiaira,
I miss you deeply, and there hasn’t been a day since you left this earth that my heart hasn’t ached for your presence. We shared a very special bond, one I will always cherish and hold dear to me. To some, it appeared as though I took care of you over the last 19 years. However, I believe we took care of each other.
When I was a small child and afraid to sleep alone, you would come to me in the night. You would curl up around my head and you wouldn’t leave until you knew I was fast asleep. Whenever I was ill with the flu, you would meow for grandma to give me medication to ease my discomfort. If ever I was depressed, whether it was over a broken heart, an altercation with a friend, or over the loss of a loved one, you sensed my sadness and comforted me. Whenever I was lonely, you would lay upon my lap in order to keep me company. You had this way of reading me in a way no other could. You knew me as well as I knew every expression, every detail of your face. You my friend, were the epitome of one of a kind.
You provided me with many valuable gifts throughout our years together. At a very young age, you taught me about companionship, commitment, and most importantly, the beauty of unconditional love. You helped make me the person I am today, and for that, I owe you
my eternal gratitude.
Baby girl, I would have given everything, gone to any lengths to have saved you. But renal failure is a battle that cannot be won which angered and hurt me because I was rendered helpless at a time when you needed me most. So as much as it killed me, I had to let you go that night as I loved you too much to allow you to suffer or no longer be able to do the things you loved. I know you’re in a better place now, and I take comfort in that.
Kiaira, I miss you terribly! I long to touch you, stroke your fur and hold you in my arms once again. I miss your kisses and the way you would gently head butt my forehead. I miss the way you would beg for food at dinner time; especially when we had some sort of seafood dish. I miss the way you would greet me when I arrived home, and I hate that you’re not here to do so anymore. But most of all, I miss the way you loved me…in that unconditional
kind of way.
Oh this house definitely feels empty without you girl, and the nights are now long and lonely. It’s hard living without you because for as long as I can remember, you’ve always been there. I’m fighting to get through this; however, I find myself feeling lost most of the time.
But sometimes if I close my eyes, I can still picture you cuddled up in your favourite chair. You’re purring and you raise your head once you notice my presence. You jump down and meow as if to say hello as you walk toward me for a belly rub. I stroke your fur and you kiss my forehead as I smile. It’s a time before you were ill, a time when we were both happy, and it’s how I like to remember you.
Until the day we meet again at Rainbow Bridge, you will hold a special place in my heart, a spot in
which no other can replace.
Missing you deeply and Loving you Always,
| Kiaira |
| 28, Sep 2005 |
| Katie |