My heart is numb from having to visit this site again with yet another family member. The second time in six weeks. I can’t believe you and Misty died so close together. I still can’t believe it. A third of our family is gone now.
Well graything I think I started grieving for you last night. Because I knew that you wouldn’t be coming home from the vet today; and if you did it would only be temporary. You were only getting worse you looked so skinny. It hurt mom to see you that way. And we know you were always sleeping couldn’t see well couldn’t even really walk from room to room. So I’m glad that it’s over now because it hurt mom so much to see you that way.
But I worry about her–it’s realizing that you’re not there anymore that’s hard to accept. That you won’t be lying next to her in bed anymore wrapped in your “blanket.” I can’t imagine our home without you.
But again just like neenote you lived a wonderful long life. Very long for your breed. And we loved you especially mom. She worshiped you. You were her baby. I hope she’s ok.
These last few years you haven’t been yourself. The real you was constantly barking at every little thing that went down the street. You were our annoying watchdog! And the way you used to run after the food bowl and scarf down everything was hilarious. Schnotsky. I’d lay on the bed watching TV and you guys would pin me down with you laying on my left side right next to me and one of the cats on my legs.
Graything I didn’t want to do this so soon. I don’t know if I can grieve again. I’m still grieving for neenote. I’m so tired of this. So tired of losing. I just can’t believe how much hurt we’ve gone thorugh this spring. I will never forget the spring of 2001 as the most miserable one of our lives. Because you and neenote were part of our family for 15 years. A long time. And now you’re both gone just like that. Why.
But now maybe you’re together. I know you two will get along and keep each other company. You always have. As for me–it’s going to be a long time before I can see a dog without crying.
You will always be my graything.
I love you.
Jennifer
| Lady |
| 12, March 2001 |
| Jennifer |