My beloved Millie,
No amount of words can even begin to describe the pain I am feeling right now as I sit here typing this knowing that I will never see you again. You have played such a big part in my life… You were born into our family when I was too young to remember, so in my eyes you have always been there along side me; you were my shadow.
I don’t know what it is like to live without you, and today was my first day of it. But I can’t do it – the pain is too much. I’ll miss your familiar whining at the window when you can see me outside, and most of all I’ll miss your little grunting noises and nudges at night when you want to get under my doona.
It’s going to be so hard to adjust to life without you, not just for me but for mum also, and your buddy Axel who has not moved from your favorite armchair.. He lies there looking up at me, and I can see the loneliness in his eyes – he knows you are gone.
I’m so sorry it had to be this way, but you know how much I love you and that I did it out of love for you. You died a dignified death, knowing who we were and that we all loved you with everything we have. I know you are in a better place, and that wherever you are, you can see us and are watching over us.
You might be gone and out of sight, but you’ll always be within reach. All I have to do is look inside my heart and it’s there that I’ll find you.
Goodnight my baby girl, my angel in the sky… I will see you when the time is right. I know you will be waiting. I love you so much and will always remember you.
Thank you for the 14 years of undivided love
you have given me.
| Millie |
| 26, May 2003 |
| Alex Tilley |