Feb. 1991 —- April 27 2001
Golden / Lab Mix
Our Vet told us that our Black Lab Sadie needed a companion.
Sadie was becoming lazy and overweight.
My husband kept at me that we needed another dog.
One day he called me from the local Animal Shelter.
He had just been introduced to a litter of 10 puppies that had been
abandoned and left in a house. I remember telling him that I cannot
come to the Shelter because I felt sorry for all the animals and
would feel badly because I could not save them all.
However I ended up there. I was immediately taken to the kennel with
the 10 puppies 4 black and 6 golden lab mix.
They were all climbing on me and I remember asking
“How do you choose just one?”
The lady working at the shelter said that she was told if you lay a puppy
in you hand and it does not squirm around then it has you trust and
would be that way for life.
That day I adopted one of the Golden Puppies.
She laid there in my hand so trusting and comfortable that is seemed
we were destined to be together.
I was not able to take the puppy home with me that day because
she was too young. I was told I had to wait a week and she would be ready.
So I went home and prepared as if I were preparing for a
newborn baby to arrive home. Everything was in place and Sadie would
soon have a sister. The day I arrived back at the Shelter
I had named the puppy. Patsy!
She had just had a bath and was a little frightened on the
short drive home. She curled her tiny body around my neck and there she
slept until we arrived home to meet her new sissy Sadie.
What I didn’t realize Sadie not only got a sister I had found an angel.
Over the years Patsy and I bonded and became one heart.
We were the best of pals and she had certainly become a Momma’s Girl.
If I moved Patsy moved. If I went outside and came right back in she
was greeting me with a present. Patsy was my shadow.
In January 2001 I was told that I had a very sick little girl.
Patsy was diagnosed with Kidney Disease. I was devastated.
I immediately started searching for help.
I did everything my Vet advised. We went for daily fluids and despite this
Patsy’s toxin levels were rising. I prayed and believed with all my heart
that my baby was going to be with me for many more years.
We became even closer during this time.
On April 27 2001 my heart was torn into a million pieces.
That morning my girl could not stand up.
She looked at me with those big brown eyes and she let me know
that she was hurting.
I did not know when I took my husband along with us to the Vet
that morning that I would never see my angel here on this earth again.
When he ask if Patsy was in pain she confirmed my fears.
My baby was not going to recover.
Her kidney’s were gone. So was my heart.
Broken and shattered beyond anything I ever imagined.
Much guilt has eaten at me since that day.
I could not let her go and was not able to be with her in the end.
Will she ever forgive her Mommy?
Patsy I love you more than my own life and
Mommy’s tears are never-ending.
Please know that I am sorry for not being strong and standing
by you till the very last breath.
Sadie misses you so much. She cried all night the day you left.
I told her we would see you again through my tears.
So keep watch for us Patsy and rest until you see us coming to you.
We love you with all our hearts and miss you more than words
can ever describe.
Love,
Mommy and Sadie
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