Riley by Jay and Diane Baker / Diane

My heart is just broken
I remember you with such happiness, and yet
Each time I remember, I cry.

Time doesn’t ease my pain.
For each day that goes by;
I hurt just the same.

I’ve had many dogs in my lifel
And when they would die
My soul was torn.
Even now when I say their names
I continue to mourn.

But I don’t believe, Riley
I’ve ever felt the loss that I feel for you.
Places that you would lay—–
Little things you used to do.

The nudges on my leg to say “I’m here” or “It’s time to eat o r take a pill”
All gone now but I feel you near me still.

I know the decision that I made was right—-but
Even so, wishing with all my might
I want you here.
Even just for a little while.
Even if I couldn’t touch you
Just seeing you would makie me smile.

I will get another dog—-not a replacement for you—-My dogs have never been replacements for each other.
For me, having a dog is as necessary to my life as breathing.
It’s who I am and even though I may be seething–
with anger or sadness or just too many cares
To be greeted by that funny face—-
Jumping around me with all the energy and joy he wants to share
With me—–ONLY ME
UNCONDITIONALLY.

 

Miss you Riley,