March 2000
Parakeet
Scooter was blue and white. He was so smart.
I remember when he would sit on top of his cage and when I sat down
he fly onto me. I loved him with all my heart and still do.
I can’t help but feel responsible for his passing.
I would have gone for him any day.
I have been suffering from depression for a few years now.
I am 13 years old and now feel like the end is coming to my life.
Before we got him I was so lonely and when he arrived it was like
he came to rescue me. We left his cage door open because he loved
to fly. I was the only one he would fly to though.
For the first time in a long time,I felt that I was loved.
I felt that everyone had given up on me not Scooter he was always there.
He was a good cuddlier he was so soft and he loved to give kisses.
The night Scooter passed I didn’t know what to do my whole life was shortly
ripped away from. He was my only reason to go on and now I didn’t
have anything. I questioned why God had to take my best friend away.
I felt lonelier than I was before the days following I was dead on the inside.
I asked God to bring Scooter back if he didn’t I would have to die too.
My best and only friend was gone and now I had nothing.
My mom saw what it was doing to me and asked me if I wanted another bird.
I said no how could she ask me to replace something that had to hold on to.
About a month later I attempted suicide and didn’t succeed.
I think that Scooter gave me another chance. I know that everyday that goes by,
he is watching me. Though I’ll miss his smell and his kisses and
the way he flew to me once I sat down I have to move on.
I don’t know why he was taken from me at a time when
he was my only friend. For that reason that he was my only friend
I will always remember him I will never forget my reason to live.
And everyday that passes I never forget to say I love you to him.
And every time I look down stairs peak over the balcony,
and see where his cage used to sit I can’t help but cry.
I miss you Scooter.
I will always love you.
And thank you for being my
only friend.
Ashley
| Scooter |